The Faithfulness of the WORD in the midst of sorrow...Goodbye my precious little ones...

"Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty. This I declare of the Lord: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my God, and I am trusting him. For he will rescue you from every trap and protect you from the fatal plague. He will shield you with his wings. He will shelter you with his feathers. HIS FAITHFUL PROMISES ARE YOUR ARMOR AND PROTECTION............(Psalm 91 :1-4 but continue to read!!!!)

"When we speak truth about God and about what He has promised us, while refusing to believe the lies of the enemy, it causes us to believe God stronger than before. That is not to say we should deny we have problems or struggles, but the way we interpret them may be different. Satan wants us to believe that God has abandoned us and reneged on His promises, but God wants us to know that His pormises are always true in spite of what we can see from our limited human perspective. By asserting our belief in His promises in prayer, we put ourselves in a position to see a lot more from God's perspective and a lot less from the enemy's." (This is a paragraph that I read from "The Power of Praying Through the Bible", by Stormie Omartian p.12)

Psalm 91:4 and Ephesians 6:10-18 mirror one another. These past weeks I have had to truly STAND on the Word of God so that I didn't drown in the midst of feeling completely helpless to save my babies. My family and I wanted these children so much but God had only ordained these babies' days to be very short. At first I was miserable, I wanted to curl up and shut out the world. Then I opened God's Word and read through many verses, chapters and books. I asked for God to help me see HIM through the deep waters of grief and helplessness. I want to list for you the many passages that God brought to me to comfort me, to encourage me, to admonish me when I looked down into the waters that threatened to drown me, to lift me up out of the grave...

Psalm 116- my heart breaks, Romans 8:26,27,28- Holy Spirit, pray for me
Psalm 34- I cry for your help, I will praise you
Psalm 6
Psalm 16- my soul rests, He is beside me, I am not abandoned.
Psalm 138, 139- wow, my babies and I were loved and are still loved
Psalm 23
Psalm 42- I need you, Lord..more than anyone else...
Psalm 46
Psalm 61,62,63- thank you, Lord
Psalm 91, 100- Praise Him!
Psalm 121- my source of help!
John 14:1-30, 15:1-17, 16:12-15, 17:1-26
Romans 8- praise my Lord...he loves me and nothing changes that!
11 Corinthians 1:3-11 There is purpose to this grief.
Ephesians 6:10-18 God does not abandon me, he equips me.
James 1:2-8, 12, 17-18 I can grow....
1 Peter 4:7-11- thank you my sisters and brothers
1 Peter 5:2- thank you my dear Pastors!!!
Romans 12- my Harvest family- thank you for being a BODY, for serving, for loving....

When the WORD states that God's Word is alive it is something to truly stand on. I have been completely sheltered by the Word, loved by the Word, strengthened by the Word, and made ready to again live, love, and sing by the Word.

"In the beginning THE WORD already existed. He was with God, and he was God. he was in the beginning with God. He created everything there is. Nothing exists that he didn't make. Life itself was in him, and this life gives light to everyone. The light shines through the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it." (John 1:1-5)

I am so glad that THE Word I read is also the THE WORD that holds me from day to day.
His mercies are new every morning.
Praise our Almighty God!
Thank you for letting me share my heart today.
To all those who have experienced loss of a child/children or just emotionally found themselves in a place that felt like deep waters pulling you under.....
Know this:
The Lord is faithful and HE IS REAL!